punkloserx's Blog

i know i just wrote on here, but i wanted to make three things clear. 1, the chick i'm in love with is none other than mi Ancilla Kiev. 2, i don't hate Julie anymore. i feel bad for all the shit i've done to her. i want to cut for all the bad things i've done and said to her. i don't love her in the sexual sense anymore. i don't want her like that either. i just want her to be happy, healthy, and live a long, long, LONG life, even if...never mind. i'm not pitying myself. and 3, my Queen and i are going to take over the world soon. those of you who are human and know you're human are gonna bow down to our might. oh, my Queen is POWERFUL. very much. and also the werewolf goddess, Maia, is not a werewolf anymore but a werepire: half-werewolf, half-vampire. and i AM a werepire, half-werecat, half-vampire. the first of my kind. and the most powerful. so, keep that in mind, worthless, puny humans!!

----Ambrosia, the Goddess of the Werepires!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

poetry sucks because i can't get the feel of it. i can't write songs, but i can write stories and journal what i feel. you all think im just so HARDCORE. blah. you dunno what you're talking about. im hardcore, yeah, but im not MEAN to people, not unless they're mean to me. :P i juggle, i play the guitar and the piano, i gamble, i laugh, i cry, i get mad, i smile, i hate, i do a lot. im not THAT hardcore. what do you have to do to be THAT kind of hardcore? i just dunno. well, my name is REALLY Ambrosia. that's hot, i guess. i dunno. i love black roses. i can paint, but i like drawing better. but i still cant really do that, either. hmm. have to work on that. i've blogged about myself before, but i just dunno. whatever works, eh? hmm. whatever.my mom's annoying, but isn't everyone's mom? that's just life. when im drunk i'll write about nothing. that's just me. whatever. so, poetry DOES suck because i really can't get into it. :c

-Ambrosia :D

i love this one video on YouTube by Ancilla. she plays the piano for Rihanna's Te Amo. i like how she plays it more than the others. she seriously has talent. she should persue that. i can play My Immortal and Breathe No More by Evanescence on the piano. i can also play No One by Alicia Keys on the piano. im trying to learn how to play Te Amo like Ancilla. she hasn't answered my friendship request back yet, though. im learning how to play New York by Alicia Keys, the one without Jay-z. i like that one. i don't really like Jay-z, 'cept for Run This Town n that's only because Rihanna's in it. i mean, i respect him because he helps Rihanna. i LOVE her. i wish i knew her. she's awesome! love her, love her hair, love her body, love all of her! she's the best. dunno if i love P!nk besides the fact that she cracks me up...? she is SOOOO funny! her So What vid is supposed to be sad, but it cracks me up! i like Sober cos of P!nk kissing herself. it's weird, i know, but i like it... it's hott! i love Amy Lee SOOOOOOO much! she makes me sad, yes, but i still LOVE her! i'd DIE for her! :D i think they should have let Jordin Sparks win the American Idol. she's got an AMAZING voice! n she's beautiful, but that has nothing to do with it, i think. but she should have won. :D i can play her song Tattoo on the piano, but not very well. but at least i try. :D ok. bye. :)

yeah, seriously. someone should SERIOUSLY come up with a good emo band name. i got one n it's very simple and easy to remember: SoEmo. i actually think that's an emo song, but it'd be a good band name, i think. those emos are really cool. i like 'em. i hear their morbid song lyrics. i write morbid sh't. like here's a verse that keeps running through my n it's totally emo! "Slit my thoat and cut my wrist" yeah. im not good in poetry or lyrical stuff. guess that makes me non-emo. but i like their clothes n hairstyles. totally cool, i think. i mean, i like HoN, but Zoey can be mean sometimes. talking 'bout emos like they're sh't. that's wrong! everyone should be equal. like this: u+me=us. yeah. i know that's lame, but i told u im not good with that stuff. i can write. like seriously good, i hear, but i dont do lyrics n poems. my bff, Naidi, says im emo. i just think im in between punk, emo, and goth. i mean i LOVE the Hot Topic pants, um, Tripp. love them! love the chains n everything. love combat boots n black lipstick, though im too chicken to wear the black lipstick. but there's my goth side. punk side? hmm. i LOVE most of Rihanna's hairstyles n those are definitely punk. i actually have one right now. yup. i also like mohawks. dunno why/. i mean im a chick. but i see a lot of chicks sporting mohawks n i wanna do that. but my mom won't let me. i still dunno what age i put on here, but im just 18. recently turned 18, too. in like February. or hower u spell that. my emo side would definitely be my skinny jeans. i have that Rihanna hairstyle that's on the GGGB: Reloaded CD cover. yeah. it's black, red, hot pink, and dirty blonde. there was some blue in it, but that was extentions i put in. the back is black n cut short, but kinda frilly. the long pieces hanging down are the hot pink, red, and the tips are dirty blonde. i guess you'd call that emo. i'd call it punk, but i guess emos n punks band together now. so...think that band name's cool? remember it! SoEmo. yup. really easy to remember.

i see her. i see her expressions. i see anger, fear, and sadness. i feel her pain through her lyrics. i love her. i wish she knew me. i'd lay in bed with her if she cried. i'd hold her tightly. i know i want her, but you can't erase pain. no matter what you do. it hurts. life kills you. i want to help her...so badly, but im nothing. to her. to the world. im nothing. i hear her cry. he, her husband, doesn't even know what she does to herself. life is killing her. i LOVE her! with all my heart. i'd give everything up to save her! everything. it's not like i have anything... electronics, yes. but no life. i love her the most. even more than Julie. no. i don't even love her... i just want her. i don't know what to do with myself. i have nothing to do. im nothing. no one understands my pain. my heart is broken. A.L.L, I LOVE YOU!!!!